These few days I am really getting enjoy working (and doing research) in biomaterials lab. I'm just realized that I like biomaterials more than other fields in materials science, how interesting and challenging a research job is. Yup these 2 years I have been doing research on polymeric stents. The difference is last year I concentrated on drug delivery system while this year I'm studying the elastic effect of bilayer stents. I'm interested to both topics, but most likely I'll choose drug delivery system for my future research studies. I did choose drug delivery for my attachment, but it'll use nanoporous rather than polymers. Hope it will be nice too. I really don't know how can I be very interested to biomaterial...probably because its usefulness and lots of application for biomedicals. How proud I'll be If my research can be used for curing others' diseases. During my high school period, I remember that I intended to have a degree in medicine, but how bad I was in biology...haha, but the most important is not necessarily to be a doctor to help others disease rite? I can use my materials background to help others through biomaterials.

OK lets go through why I put the title of this post as "Decision Making". It's related to last postings when I said about I got one nice mentor quitting his PhD degree in biomaterials. Unfortunately I got another friend want to quit also. Hmm...so sad to hear that. He's one of my best friend and "brother". I didn't know what to say to him yesterday when he told me bout this. I was just very shocked...what happen?why must quit? He said he's too frustated to the result of his experiments for this 1.5 year. Currently he's doing tissue adhesive for drug delivery. I was just silent for awhile when he told me everything.

At first I thought he's only kidding...but it's real. Actually he's been thinking about this decision to his supervisor, who is my best lecturer and friend as well...hehe. He then decided to quit asap and apply to either a polytechnic or as master student. He doesn't ever want to continue to PhD degree again in the future. Oh my god, taking PhD degree is not that easy in fact, lots of problems will come year by year. I really need to think it carefully if I really want to take it in the future then. It's not an easy choice though. I like research, but I'm still doubt... can I achive the set goal? it needs lots of my efforts to get the best result.

Currently I'm thinking to get a preparation class for toefl, ielts or GRE during my next semester IA. May be I'll do it at night somewhere. I realized my english skill is still not good enough to get good score. I must do something to improve it. So I'll be more flexible to choose where to continue my study later.

Yesterday while I was learning how to use DMA with YeeShan, she told me better to take master first overseas then continue PhD then go back to Singapore. It's not so worth to take PhD directly here, coz the foundation may not be so firm and the status later will be different. For me may be it's partially true but the most important thing is I want to get new environment and new experience. Here is too study oriented for me...hehehe. May be I'll consider it. I'm a bit puzzled now.

Go back to my gastric. Hehe. Today morning I came to dr Tan as he asked me last week. He said I need to take other medications until 2 weeks onwards then come back to see him. Probably he'll do a Urea test 1 month from now. So totally I need to do it at least for 6 weeks. What a torture! I have to face it patiencely, unless it'll appear again. He said it's probably I got this bacterias when I was in Indonesia, and he assumed I got my own antibody from now on. Ok I need to continue working then. Bye.